My Insane Scribbling – love Mad

My Insane Scribbling – Love MadKeaton-Mad-Love-Headline-Image2-726x288

A storm just for me ripples the very skies; rain-veins on the windows as my candle burns with a hiss. I just killed a man, not a man but myself. My sanity has gone forever and all that this world is left with is the condition. From the clouds their improper faces which glare at my improper soul, spit at my feet, walking in puddles.

Time is the biggest of killers to me. I wish, I wish, I am choking on this wishbone. Within me is only without you. They are the people of the dawn and I am the son of the night, bullets and knives make my halo but loss takes a chunk of body and thread. I screamed for you, your name rang in my ear.

When from the shadows comes brightening hate,

Take their skin and their bones shall break,

Burn their eyes and stab their hearts,

Take their heads and tear them apart.

I am a black flower now in bloom, these words are my toxins. Greatness has no fear, I shall be born great, observe. Would you like some life along with that body?  I will poison their minds with my venomous behaviour. The war inside me rages on. Where I will take you now, your eyes will be my weapon.

Finding an equal heart takes time, but losing that heart takes another. They say revenge upon love is the evilest of actions one can do; but the loss of you made the anger build and build and build until a smile arose upon my face and an idea was brewed. Now in the clutches of death we think about the people we would like to bring with us – Good and bad.

Can you hear that? That is the world bleeding, crying with discomfort and it is all because of me! I am never forever but for never.  Life or death, neither would survive within me if I only committed to my true nature.

I am holding this world’s fate within my palm, paradise or purgatory, everlastingly within a plummet. A dire need for fire or love, torn would be the word between worlds, neither for me.

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13 responses to “My Insane Scribbling – love Mad

  1. Cool style, like it. Captured some real anger there.

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  2. My eyes bleed with something hotter than fire, something hotter than of this earth.I am alpha and omega. The beginning and the end.

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  3. I knew I shouldn’t have returned to this evil place.

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  4. Oh man. If you knew what repressed memories I just let out of pandoras box were doing to me right now. You might want to check my latest blog. A mashup of journal ranging from 2002- 2005 mostly just 2002 and 2005. I apparently was so traumatized by what happened to me that I deleted the one fucking entry I was looking for. But I remember what happened, very clearly. Thanks for helping me face my fears I found the root of my trauma and I will soon be restoring that trauma back to where it belongs. Not in my body. Anyway, I am excited when you get the chance read my old journal entries from when I was like 19. I sounded fucking insane!! I couldn’t even believe it. I had no control over my emotions or my anger or my paranoia. Oh, it was so vulnerable to see the condition I was in and the position I had put all my friends in. It’s fascinating, really. I probably went through those journals for over two hours. I only kept the pieces that really stuck out though. Some were quite boring, nonsensical just documents of my travels and my trials. I only kept the ones that really called to me. I was starting to see a pattern and it was freaking me out. Whew. Hope you get to read it soon! A young insane’s girl’s diary! lol. I was a joke.

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  5. Pingback: My Insane Scribblings #3 – Forgive Me | Fiction Writing For Teens & Adults

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