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A Poem for Cacilia


Sleepy Cacilia

I took this photo of my Sleepy Girlfriend, I like it. She is completely crazy (Just like me!) and I love her for it. Cacilia, this is for you.

A Poem for Cacilia

With you I’m in my mind,

Without you I’m out it,

A normal life need not apply,

How about we go around it,

I don’t want to fight with you,

And you don’t want to fight me,

I am your pipedream,

Living happily,

We could be two dancing freaks.

Two titled psychopaths,

Getting out of these dry clothes fast,

High blood pressure,

We laugh at killing each other’s plans.

We’re both black-belts in danger,

We’re both each other’s guardian angels,

The legs to each other’s table,

To love each other we’re both capable.

No one can stop us,

Nonsense is lost in us,

Frostbitten accosted us,

You’re so gorgeous to touch.

When life gets too much,

I’m by your side,

And when our time is up,

I’ll fight for one more night.

Is this a trick or is it love?

If it is then my heart is ripped,

And this song can be written in blood.

You can be my partner in crime,

I will lay my heart on the line,

From start to finish, I will travel through time,

Just to die at the same time.

Even through heaven or Hell,

You put a spell on my world,

For better or worse,

I fell in love with this girl’s every single detail.

Now if it was the end of us,

It would be the end of my world,

I’m in the centre of hell,

When a day passes without you,

I’m running naked in the rain,

This whole universe could slate me,

You saved me from this pain,

Someone shake him he’s crazy,

You can either love me or hate me,

This comes deep from within and still I’m falling,

I just wanted you to know you will always be my baby and I love you, I am calling.

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Breaking Bad Love


Breaking Bad 'ABS' edition

Breaking Bad ‘ABS’ edition (Photo credit: crises_crs)

 

Breaking Bad Love

You may believe this is a story of another broken-heart, but you’d be wrong. This is a story about overcoming Drug Addiction. I hope this helps you…

These Breaking bad thoughts shimmer to the surface, living in a fantasy world where I shiver in the darkness within a false high. Doped up to the eyeballs, this is where I fall from the sky; this is where I’ve lost my mind, right on. Black rainbows of love whilst living in the dark, I’m not supposed to grow in the shadows of a drug. I can’t sleep at night; I love you too much to close my eyes, to close this chapter of our lives we share together. They tell me “One day at a time” but days are no longer my problem, it’s the seconds I circle around when I think of your last kiss. One more hit and I’m done with this. I say I am done with you, but I know deep down I live under you, amazed by the clouds you show me. I loved you and I believed in you so much, if I knew your plans I would have never taken your hand and runaway. You feel so good it should be illegal.

These love drugs are teasing me, they do not love me the way I love them. You leave me speechless and breathless; this is our dirty little secret which keeps me restless, I will never speak of this. Reality, she means nothing to me now, I’m in love with the voice and the feel of you. You’re the real eye-candy, I want to show you off but at the same time keep you to myself, you make me nail-bitingly selfish. It’s always the last time, but with every kiss feels like our first. I’m cheating on my basic motor-functions with you. This is my love letter to you, after this we will be done.

I can no longer tell what is real and what is not, this was your doing. This broken heart and endless turns within these covers will be my punishment for leading you down my path. Crying with a glass of water held by a shaking hand, you bring me no joy in doing this. Time to love what is good for me, not love what I want. A fresh breeze runs over my pale skin. I will no longer listen to the voices or even pick up that phone, I want my life back! I want pain, I want my talent back, I want my family and most of all I want my girlfriend; you stole this from me.

I know I will open up books in the future and see your devastating face as you destroy someone else’s existence. But they will have to pull through your chill by their selves, I cannot help. I must dump you now down the toilet of forever. I can hear you shouting “How will you survive without me?!” Do you really want to know how I will survive? …Like this, by myself. I’m going to get myself rich, buy myself a time-machine and throw you out before you got here, only so you know. Just like you, you won’t see me coming.

I’m clawing my way back to the light from your tantalizing siren love song, now I’m pissed off, no one can control this mental patient, I am ultimate; I will be forever. Life is my drug now and you mean nothing to me, it’s over now… leave.

 

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Happy Valentine’s Day Cacilia


I have been saying to my girlfriend for a while that I would write her something, so I thought Valentine’s Day would be the best time to show how much I love her. She is totally awesome to me and helps calm all my demons when she is around. I love you Cacilia!

Without you, I’m breaking into shards,
With you, I am taking out my heart,
Boxing it up for you because we have a certain spark,
No person can see we’re both psychopaths,
Broken and damaged,
We both recycle and remember our pasts,
We keep hurtling further back to our bedroom blasts.
Cheesy as it sounds you’re the only one I want,
My sexual ghost under these sheets ready to haunt,
Giving me writersblock, you rock my world; I am lost in this girl,
I am finding a way to you from out of this shell.
You have no idea how much to mean to me,
Words cannot express,
Your love is a wildfire,
I am basking in your flames,
Up upon this high wire,
I am miraculously masking how much we have changed.
When the rain falls hard,
And the world comes for blood,
I’ll build you a house of cards,
Let everyone we know huff and puff.
Throw away your past,
Caution is telling me you’re my cute cure,
I am blown away by this lass,
Without fortune-telling I am your future.
You have demons, so do I,
Damaged by these simple creatures costumed people,
Seeing the world with soap in their eyes.
If you are surrounded by fire,
I will let it burn because I will come for you,
This is how much I really love you.

Cacilia

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How to Get the Girl of Your Dreams – Guest Blog by Stuart Kennedy


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How to Get the Girl of Your Dreams – Guest Blog by Human Behaviour Psychologist, Stuart Kennedy

Hello there my name is Stuart Kennedy; I am Alexander’s younger brother and also human behaviour psychologist. I was turned onto psychology when Alex was first diagnosed with schizophrenia and I heard certain terms and phrases thrown around in conversations, so I did my homework and learned what they meant and several years later I am a fully fledged HBP. I heard about the noise my brother was making on his blog and I thought I would do the brotherly thing and add insult to injury along with my two cents. Hope you enjoy.

I am here to tell all of the LOVE CRAZIED DUDES out there; I have found your holy grail. Now I know at one time or another within our life’s we fall hard for “That one.” Beautiful, no word comparison, I hear fifties music in my head when she is near, she makes me want to watch chick flicks – Girl. I am here to tell you how to get her and it is really simple and short.

Now I know with other websites or advice you hear, “Some people have it and some people don’t.” Or “Beautiful people go with beautiful people and the rest can wrestle together.” (Well I made that last one up….) Forget all of that. I will give you one scenario and why it will work, I will show you the psychology of it, something those other sites forget to tell you because they are not me. And all I need from you is to keep reading and to look deep within yourselves and pull out a slither of CONFIDENCE – For once in your life, fight yourself, for something you want!

(We Kennedy’s pride ourselves on our talent, can you tell? Haha!)

Picture this… You are casually walking around the mall or somewhere else and there she is, TIME STOPS,  she is sitting with a group of her friends, probably giggling about some movie or some lad. Now you stroll over to her and lean in so everyone at that table can see you; you stare into her peepers and you say these words.

“Can I just say; there is no one on this planet that is as beautiful as you within my eyes.”

Now walk away, do not turn back… Play it cool.

DONE!!!

Okay, granted at this time you may be laughed at (I am 100% certain she will not be the one laughing, she will be taking your words in. And women like guys to notice them in seas of other fish.) If she knows you exist. But here is the clever part to my method; you don’t have to be a good-looking dude for this to work, because YOU WERE THE ONE TO SAY IT TO HER!

Not her boyfriend, not other stylish guys… But that guy who has nothing but his heart to give her.

Now she will return home that night after joking about that guy who said those words and she sits next to in Math, she will lay in her bed and THINK ABOUT YOU those words will be swimming within her thoughts, thus a chain reaction has been formed, a bond has been made, all because you reached into your soul for a little confidence.

Now if my powers of observation have taught me anything, the next time you two meet will be on her terms, not yours, if you two bump into one another it is usually because she has come and tracked you down… FOR MORE NICE THINGS TO SAY TO HER!

My logic is sound on this, trust me. Oh yeah, always play safe. 😉

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I really hope my relationship advice has helped you, I will be back in the future for other guest posts on my brother’s blog to give you folks some more.

I also hope you continue to carry on reading Alex’s work, I can see greatness in this one… (Sorry, an old family joke. We’ll tell you later.)

Stuart Kennedy

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A Hate Letter For Forever Love


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Cupid (Photo credits: http://www.roadtrafficsigns.com)

Each blink is too long and each beat is too much to cage and bare, so I shall rip off my eyelids to keep you in my sight’s a little longer and tear through my chest and place myself as a sacrifice to the goddess of my inner war. My lips become unworked and dry without your pressure and I wonder and pace in circles to this addiction called you, your essence or smoke clings to my lungs, I know each inhale is deadly but the remembrance will one day be my murderer. I know you have found your feet and walked the ground you stood on but you left a blood-trail when you drove your hand through my ribs, clasped your fingers around my heart and dragged it off to the unknown, thank you. I have tried to rip and burn the photographs of you but your witchcrafting spells are protection against your stillness towards the weak. It feels as if I am chained to a monstrous mountains peak of snow and I am kneeling at its feet, tortured to watch the skies clouds that have now been replaced with images of our better times and precious seconds. There was no Cupid with a bow and arrow only a silent thief with a dagger. No medical diagnosis or prescription to help me now, the only answer it to go cold turkey, the oldest of remedies and cures but it will surely almost destroy me as you have ripped out my insides, cooked them and now I am ready to carve. The thought of you make me throw-up, not in a sickening way to your portrait but fear, anxiety, frustration and anger, those are the invisible fingers down my throat.

Thank you, Love.

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